2WW

The dreaded 2 week wait. Is the weeks after ovulation you are waiting for you AF (Aunt Flow) to come. Gezz I am becoming obsessed and its driving me nutts. I may be losing sleep over the whole waiting and charting thing. I would wake up at 3 am and try to not actually open my eyes because I am afraid I'm going to ruin my temp for the day. Because I usually get up and temp at 5 am. Well I am constitantly thinking about it now and when you wake up if you can't get 3 hours or more sleep in then your temp is messed up.

My chart has too many open circles for me to like. I just want this first cycle to be over with and I can start obessing over the next cycle. Fertility Friend is the website I use to chart my temps. They gave me a 30 day free VIP trial where you list every possible symptom you feel each day. It also gives you a percentage of early pregnancy detectors and each day I look at that and the percentage decreases. Not fair. I'm glad that my VIP trial is almost over and I wont have to worry about being let down by that stupid little number.

I just realized that Saturday I will be 10DPO. That makes me feel alittle more guilty for going out and getting drunk sat night. But I still wont be testing until the next weekend. I am suppose to get AF some time next week and we will see if she comes...

The first Cut

So tonight I am finally cutting my hair off. I will update with pics after its over...Goodbye long hair, welcoming new short easy to take care of hair. I hope...Maybe it will make me feel older than I am or make me look older than I am.

Why am I freaking out about cutting my hair off, maybe because if it sucks it takes forever to grow back. I shouldn't worry, everyone keeps telling me it will look cute. Well we will find out in an hour. It only takes one cut.

Surprise

I am getting really anxious for a surprise birthday we are putting on for Chad's Best Friend Jason. He is turning the big 30 and is a little depressed about it. We are renting a party bus to take us to the Funny Bone and then back home to do a little partyin. It should be a good time and he should crap his pants. He has no idea it will be coming!

I was a little nervous knowing that I would be 8dpo and anxious to test. But I'm not going to until Im actually late. I don't want to get my hopes up. With this in mind gives me ease to go out at least one more time before I find out if we are pregnant or not.

So party on! Hope that doesn't sound too aweful. Gives my mind ease when I know drinking during the 2ww won't harm a baby if one is developing.

Happy Birthday Hogan

Happy 2nd Birthday to our shitzu Hogan!

What you've missed

I just wanted to start my first blog post by catching up. We have decided to start trying to make a family. We were married June 7, 2008. I orginally planned waiting until the 1 year mark before we would even start trying.

Then at the end of December 2008, Chad and I were talking about his boss Jim asking him about when we were planning on starting a family and such and Chad just told him sometime soon. Well that got our conversation started.

I asked Chad when he wanted to start having kids (mind the fact that I had baby fever so bad, everyone I knew was pregnant) he said he is ready now and wants to start a family right away. This scared me initially because I wasn't sure if I was really ready. So we decided that with that said I would come off birth control pills as soon as I finished my last pack which happened to be the 2nd week in January. So we have been actively trying since then.

We are keeping it a secret from everyone for different reasons, mainly we want it to be a surprise to people when we tell them we finally are pregnant. Also I don't want all the nagging questions of if I'm pregnant yet or not. Sorry mom!

But after the first real cycle I started charting my temps. So this would be our first official cycle of TTC (Trying to Conceive). My chart is completely wanky. It goes up and down and kinda stressful but it will help in the end.

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/25790b