31 Day Cycle...

I am getting really annoyed with no AF. I am going to be testing tomorrow morning if I still do not have her by then. I've been having cramps like it could be here any minute but I go to the bathroom and not even a spot. grr. Maybe I shouldn't be too upset about this because maybe it would result in a BFP (Big Fat Positive) but my temps have been so off that it gets me discouraged. I didnt' want to test and get a negative but it looks like I'm going to have to to reassure myself.

My last period was 27 days. Which was the first cycle coming off the pill and it seemed normal. This cycle definitely not normal. so gay. I have been definetly having sore nipples though and it totally freaked me out. I was this has never happened before. But I thought it was because I went tanning and maybe burned my nipples. They don't hurt to bad unless i'm not wearing a bra. then omg! Of course I tell Chad this and he jumps all over hoops to rub my nipples to ask if it hurts. God like it doesn't! Nice excuse. But then again my temp rose on Wednesday but I think it was due to tanning again and my body just being so warm.

So I'm tanning again tonight after work which would suggest that my body temp is going to be high again tomorrow so no real indication of if my temps finally falls below cover line. Which it hasn't since it rose. good lord the wait is going to make me go insane.

I thought about testing this morning but I got to scared. I am going to do it on the weekend so it gives me the whole day to digest the news and take as many tests as I need. Plus if its positive I get to spend the whole weekend with Chad and be happy about it, if its a negative hopefully I can run enough errands to forget about it a bit. I keep getting my hopes up reading all the BFP's on the Getting Pregnant Bump board. Im just not that confident in myself because I never have very good luck. Wish my husband could take the test and tell me, he has better luck.

Oh the day couldn't go by any slower. patiently waiting for aunt flow to come, every time i feel a cramp im like oh here she comes...disappointment..well maybe not..well maybe. I keep jinxing myself.