so cute

My husband that is. Chad sent me the sweetest text this morning on my way to work. I drive 45 minutes to get to work and as I went to work this am I got this..."Do u now not feel lonely since there is 2 of u driving to des moines". He is so excited for this baby and it makes me feel so much better when I know that he is so happy. Everytime he talks about it, it makes me smile. Im so glad that hes going to be involved, even in writing blogs. hehe

Well I called the doctors office today and she had to talk to the doctor before she could schedule me so i'm still waiting to hear back from them. I guess if I don't hear back from them by 3 today I will be calling them back. Im anxious for our first appointment but I bet we have to wait a few more weeks to get in. So we wait patiently.

Yeah....

Well this is Dad here i guess you can say that now. It hasn't really hit me yey. But I am so excited to become a father and raise a child with Amy(and Hogan). I really think that Hogan knows something is going on, but not real sure yet. I'm looking forward to the upcoming 8 months ahead. Getting the baby room ready, picking out names, and we havea busy upcoming summer. Jason, Izac and myself are planning on doing a lot of fishing, some camping, racing, nationwide race in August and maybe going with my Dad, Uncle Dave and Zach to Canada fishing in the early fall prior to the arrival of our new child. So many things are going through my head right now. Im sure many will be answered in the days to come. Hehehehehhehehehehe.. This shall be a exciting journey for me and Amy. As my life has changed so much in the last 3 years. Which has all been in a great way. I look forward to everything that we ahve to learn as a family. And Hogie buns you will always be our babay.

Sincerely
Chad

P.S. I really hope that Amy's gas problem doesn't last too long. As you know that all of us guys our proud when we let a good one go. But these that Amy is experiencing right now our knock outs to any of those.

Stage Fright.

Holy freaking cow. I took a test Saturday March 7, 2009 around 11 and sure enough 2 bright pink lines showed up. That would make me 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant.

In week 3, sperm meets egg, and voila: conception! Your little zygote sets off on a six-day trek through your fallopian tubes, dividing and redividing into identical cells as it travels to your uterus.

In week 4, now safe in your womb, the ball of cells (blastocyst) splits in two, becoming the embryo and the placenta. The amniotic sac and fluid are forming around baby, and will act as a cushion for the next eight months.

This is still something that doesn't quite seem real. Before I took the test the symptoms I was feeling was tender nipples, gas, major AF cramping and slight heart burn. I knew once I felt that heart burn something was up. I have never had heartburn like that before. When I went to take the test the first time I couldn't pee for the life of me. Talk about a major case of stage fright. So i drank some more water and continued to get ready. Tried again still no pee. you have got to be kidding me. gezz. Finally I told Chad that we couldn't leave for Ames until I peed on a stick. So he went out to start the truck and to the bathroom I was. Finally I got enough to get it on the end of the stick and I watched as it slowly changed to gray indicating it was working. Then as bright as day the first line appeared and then the second line. Well I looked at it disbelieve, like is this really true.

So after I get done in the bathroom I went out to the kitchen and Chad is looking at me like shit is it negative. I showed him and he goes "really". Yeah really. What do we do now I said. We were so excited but we are so new to this. We aren't quite sure what we were to do. It hadn't really set in yet. We decided that we were going to tell our parents Sunday and wait to tell everyone else.

We went to Ames and we were looking to find a bib or a outfit that said I love gma or gpa. Well after going to kmart, target, the mall and walmart we couldn't find any of that and we went for a Iowa State outfit and booties and an Iowa Hawkeye outfit and booties for my parents and chads parents. We told my parents and my three brothers, sister-inlaw and gma today. I started crying as soon as my mom freaked out. Let the emotions flow. We ended up not being able to tell Chad's parents because they got stranded in Chicago coming home from Vacation. So tomorrow we are already planning to go over there for supper. Chads mom will probably scream too. We will find out.

Still so weird to hear people talk about "Amy's got a baby in her belly". Im going to call the doctor tomorrow and hope to get a checkup soon. Until tomorrow.

31 Day Cycle...

I am getting really annoyed with no AF. I am going to be testing tomorrow morning if I still do not have her by then. I've been having cramps like it could be here any minute but I go to the bathroom and not even a spot. grr. Maybe I shouldn't be too upset about this because maybe it would result in a BFP (Big Fat Positive) but my temps have been so off that it gets me discouraged. I didnt' want to test and get a negative but it looks like I'm going to have to to reassure myself.

My last period was 27 days. Which was the first cycle coming off the pill and it seemed normal. This cycle definitely not normal. so gay. I have been definetly having sore nipples though and it totally freaked me out. I was this has never happened before. But I thought it was because I went tanning and maybe burned my nipples. They don't hurt to bad unless i'm not wearing a bra. then omg! Of course I tell Chad this and he jumps all over hoops to rub my nipples to ask if it hurts. God like it doesn't! Nice excuse. But then again my temp rose on Wednesday but I think it was due to tanning again and my body just being so warm.

So I'm tanning again tonight after work which would suggest that my body temp is going to be high again tomorrow so no real indication of if my temps finally falls below cover line. Which it hasn't since it rose. good lord the wait is going to make me go insane.

I thought about testing this morning but I got to scared. I am going to do it on the weekend so it gives me the whole day to digest the news and take as many tests as I need. Plus if its positive I get to spend the whole weekend with Chad and be happy about it, if its a negative hopefully I can run enough errands to forget about it a bit. I keep getting my hopes up reading all the BFP's on the Getting Pregnant Bump board. Im just not that confident in myself because I never have very good luck. Wish my husband could take the test and tell me, he has better luck.

Oh the day couldn't go by any slower. patiently waiting for aunt flow to come, every time i feel a cramp im like oh here she comes...disappointment..well maybe not..well maybe. I keep jinxing myself.

December?

Even though it technically isn't over yet. My temps have been slowly decreasing the past two days. I know its hard to say anything about this cycle since it was the first time I charted and I have all the open circles. I just think its all coming to an end soon.

The ache has flared up as usual and have been very irritated by most things. I just want AF to come and get over with so I can begin a new cycle.

I am really hesitant about actually getting pregnant in March. I know it could be a long shot and I should really be wanting to, but a part of me doesn't actually want it to happen until April. I just don't really want my child to be born in December; how freaking stupid is that. Im not going to actually give up its just a reserve I have about it. I feel bad for people who have to share their birthdays with all the holiday hoopla that goes on then.

I know so many people who have birthdays around then and some don't seem to mind and some say it was a downfall as a child but if it happens I will be so excited about it, but if it doesn't happen I wont be too terribly upset either.

2WW

The dreaded 2 week wait. Is the weeks after ovulation you are waiting for you AF (Aunt Flow) to come. Gezz I am becoming obsessed and its driving me nutts. I may be losing sleep over the whole waiting and charting thing. I would wake up at 3 am and try to not actually open my eyes because I am afraid I'm going to ruin my temp for the day. Because I usually get up and temp at 5 am. Well I am constitantly thinking about it now and when you wake up if you can't get 3 hours or more sleep in then your temp is messed up.

My chart has too many open circles for me to like. I just want this first cycle to be over with and I can start obessing over the next cycle. Fertility Friend is the website I use to chart my temps. They gave me a 30 day free VIP trial where you list every possible symptom you feel each day. It also gives you a percentage of early pregnancy detectors and each day I look at that and the percentage decreases. Not fair. I'm glad that my VIP trial is almost over and I wont have to worry about being let down by that stupid little number.

I just realized that Saturday I will be 10DPO. That makes me feel alittle more guilty for going out and getting drunk sat night. But I still wont be testing until the next weekend. I am suppose to get AF some time next week and we will see if she comes...

The first Cut

So tonight I am finally cutting my hair off. I will update with pics after its over...Goodbye long hair, welcoming new short easy to take care of hair. I hope...Maybe it will make me feel older than I am or make me look older than I am.

Why am I freaking out about cutting my hair off, maybe because if it sucks it takes forever to grow back. I shouldn't worry, everyone keeps telling me it will look cute. Well we will find out in an hour. It only takes one cut.